Stop the car, lay on the grass.

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 03:49:49 GMT

Turtle

Wed, 18 May 2005 06:14:19 GMT

You Are a Retrospective Soul

The most misunderstood of all the soul signs.
Sometimes you even have difficulty seeing yourself as who you are.
You are intense and desire perfection in every facet of your life.
You're best described as extremely idealistic, hardworking, and a survivor.

Great moments of insight and sensitivity come to you easily.
But if you aren't careful, you'll ignore these moments and repeat past mistakes.
For you, it is difficult to seperate the past from the present.
You will suceed once you overcome the disappoinments in life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Traveler Soul and Prophet Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Wed, 18 May 2005 02:10:54 GMT

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 23:25:17 GMT

I was upset and angry - I know what I said was wrong.

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 07:05:55 GMT

2 Years ago this day my life was changed by a girl from Whaleyville :)

Happy would've been 2 year anniversary amy! Love ya <3

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 16:53:07 GMT

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 23:17:14 GMT

I miss the blurty days :\

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 08:30:07 GMT

look, a turtle

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 14:47:56 GMT

Look at him go!

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 17:17:58 GMT

Stupid mother fucker told me to wait to sign up cause he was too lazy. Now I have to wait a fucking year to take my class.. I don't have time for this shit. I finally try to get shit done quickly so I have more time to do what I want, and I still get fucked over cause of someone else. God damnit.

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 05:55:22 GMT

I wish I had a reason to continue.

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 06:03:17 GMT

God I miss you...

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 04:14:11 GMT

I never said/did anything that would hold you back from moving on.. I am glad you found someone to talk to - just respect the fact that I am not over you and the idea of someone else potentially taking my place hurts me. I don't want to think about it.

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 03:00:55 GMT

I can't deal with this

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 04:43:04 GMT

beep buhleepbeep beep beepmeepbeepbuleeppppbeep

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 00:36:51 GMT

I got the most wonderful valentines day e-card today... it made me happy on the inside and out

♥

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 06:44:16 GMT

The world is mysteriously beautiful while we sleep..

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 14:59:46 GMT

In my fantasy, I’m a pantomime
I'll just move my hands and everyone sees what I mean
Words are too messy, and it’s way past time
To end in my mouth paint my face white and tried
To reinvent the sea, one wave a time
Speak without my voice and see the world by candlelight

I ain’t afraid to let it out
I’m not afraid to take that fall
But I have found beyond all doubt
You say more by saying nothing at all

In my fantasy, no such thing as time
Minutes bleed into days avant garde and show
Me your heresies, and I’ll show you mine
We only speak in pantomimes on this carpet ride

I ain’t afraid to let it out
I’m not afraid to take that fall
But I found beyond all doubt
You say more by saying nothing at all

In my fantasy, you look good entwined
In my hair and skin and spit and sweat and spilled red wine
You’re my deep secret
I’m your pantomime
I’ll just move my hands I’ll promise you’ll see what I mean

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 05:54:36 GMT

Have you ever felt like you're lost? Not like you're momentarily sad.. but you feel like you have no home, no soul, no being..? Like nobody could care less if you exist - including yourself. There is no reason to wake up, put on your shoes and go to work.. nor to even bother eating, sleeping, talking, breathing. I have lost everything, and showing no signs of finding it. I have nothing - nowhere to call home, no personality, no feelings but sadness...whats left? Flesh and bone. fucking wonderful. I need a reason

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 07:06:44 GMT

Why did this have to happen?
what did I do wrong?
why didn't things work out?
We were happy
We were content
We shared big plans - It was almost official
Why did we fight so much? are we that different?
Why do I still love you so much?
It would be easier if I could hate you, but I can't
You are perfect..everything I could ask for.. why did I lose you?
I am sitting here waiting for something that will never happen, you told me it won't..but why do I still wait?
Why?
Why can't we go back in time? I know its still in you, and I know its still in me.. why did we have to grow up so fast
I am no me anymore. I don't know who the fuck I am.
I'm scared.
My one connection to reality is gone..
I am lost in this meaningless world and no one gives a fuck
I need to accept it but I can't.. I won't. It just won't happen.
nothing makes sense anymore.. I have no idea what is happening or what will happen
All I know is I need to do something but I have no idea what that something is..
Do I start over?
Do I run away?
Do I change everything?
Do I move on?
Do I forget?
Or do I throw in the towel and say no more?
What do I do? I can't ask myself because making a decision on my own is impossible
I am lost.
John said it best..
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it look as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday
If only it were so easy..

and, scene.

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 20:59:07 GMT

Yay! No points for me.. just $48 and 60 day probation lol. Im good as long as I don't hit anyone.. yay again

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 16:39:59 GMT

Going to court today... yay. If I lose, I'll have to pay the difference of my already $1000/6 months. 3 points + 1k insurance = probably $2500 every 6 months. Fuck it.

I think im going to delete my journal.

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 14:50:02 GMT

Sun, 16 Jan 2005 02:59:42 GMT

Were they always this great?

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 06:15:52 GMT

no one reads my journal besides you amy..

haha I have no friends